Dear Addiction, 

For over a decade you consumed and controlled all that is me. Every decision I made revolved around feeding your never ending hunger. No matter how much I gave you- it was never enough. I gave you every single moral and value I had in life- you chewed it up and spat back defects and left me with no morals or values to live by. I gave you all of my sense of self- but that wasn’t enough to fill your desire for destruction. I gave you more of me- all of me- all of those around me. I gave you the love and care I should have been giving myself and my family. All of my time, my effort and my focus became yours, I stole, lied, cheated and fought everyone and everything around me for you, but no matter how much I fed you- you roared for more. You took my friends, my family and finally my kids. All of that still didn’t satisfy your ravenous desire, It was then that I realized the only thing left for you to take was my literal being. I had already given myself to you at a young age, but you needed my entirety before you would have enough. I wasn’t willing to give you that without a fight, I began my search to find a way out of this deal i had made with the devil. I made a decision that I would not stop fighting to take back everything I had given you. To take back everything you had stripped me of. On this journey of searching for a way out I found my kryptonite against you. I found recovery. You were no match for the war I dedicated myself to fighting.  Not only would I begin to fight to take it all back, but I would win it all back and not stop and go after even more. Not only would I fight you for my life, but I will win.

Sincerely, 

A Survivor.